Friday, September 20, 2013
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
I Hate Gluten and Gluten Hates Me
So it is almost 10:30pm on a Tuesday night and at some point during dinner I ate something that had gluten in it. I can always tell when it happens b/c the symptoms come on fast and they come on strong.
The first thing I notice when I eat something with gluten in it is the stomach pain & discomfort. The next thing I notice is the severe nausea and then the rest of my body starts to ache & that is only the beginning.
Shortly after the initial pain in my stomach I start to get itchy all over. My skin feels like sandpaper and no amount of lotion helps. Then the spasms start, first in my stomach and then it radiates all over my back. I now realize that all my spasms that I was getting steroid injections for each and every month are all b/c of gluten and my issues with my digestive system. The sad part is the doctors are still not supportive and think that I am just a hypochondriac. Well let me tell you after 2 years of being told "nothing is wrong with you," accusations of being a drug seeker and basically telling me it is all in my head the doctors can SUCK IT! Because if this is in my head than how come it feels like I have the flu? How come I don't have pain and discomfort when I don't consume Wheat, Gluten or anything else that my body cannot process. Why is it that I've lost nearly 30lbs in 3 months and how come I just feel better all around? Oh that's right b/c it is in my head so I must have willed my body to feeling better. What a crock of shit!
This is not fun and it does not go away quickly. Why the doctors are so against treating and diagnosing me is beyond my realm of thinking? They seem to want me to admit to being depressed and they want me to say I don't deal with something very painful. Do you know how many times a doctor has said that I need to see a psychiatrist? I am so sick of doctors labeling me "depressed" b/c I have a voice and I know what is wrong with me and your western medicine had NOTHING to do with it. I know my body and I know I am NOT DEPRESSED. I was last year when I could not eat and I threw up every single time I did eat. Yea that would make you sad and depressed too but that does not mean I am "clinically" depressed no it means I was malnourished and had no one believe me that something was seriously wrong with me. I could go on and on about this (and have) but it won't make a difference b/c until doctors realize how bad of an epidemic this food sensitivity/allergy is, nothing will change. They will do anything other than look at something as simple as a food allergy. They will do every test and every procedure before just testing for an allergy. NO it can't be that simple can it? Well it is... I don't need all these "tests" to tell me what is wrong with me. I figured it out all on my own. Anyway, back to consuming gluten and what it does to me...
The first thing I notice when I eat something with gluten in it is the stomach pain & discomfort. The next thing I notice is the severe nausea and then the rest of my body starts to ache & that is only the beginning.
Shortly after the initial pain in my stomach I start to get itchy all over. My skin feels like sandpaper and no amount of lotion helps. Then the spasms start, first in my stomach and then it radiates all over my back. I now realize that all my spasms that I was getting steroid injections for each and every month are all b/c of gluten and my issues with my digestive system. The sad part is the doctors are still not supportive and think that I am just a hypochondriac. Well let me tell you after 2 years of being told "nothing is wrong with you," accusations of being a drug seeker and basically telling me it is all in my head the doctors can SUCK IT! Because if this is in my head than how come it feels like I have the flu? How come I don't have pain and discomfort when I don't consume Wheat, Gluten or anything else that my body cannot process. Why is it that I've lost nearly 30lbs in 3 months and how come I just feel better all around? Oh that's right b/c it is in my head so I must have willed my body to feeling better. What a crock of shit!
This is not fun and it does not go away quickly. Why the doctors are so against treating and diagnosing me is beyond my realm of thinking? They seem to want me to admit to being depressed and they want me to say I don't deal with something very painful. Do you know how many times a doctor has said that I need to see a psychiatrist? I am so sick of doctors labeling me "depressed" b/c I have a voice and I know what is wrong with me and your western medicine had NOTHING to do with it. I know my body and I know I am NOT DEPRESSED. I was last year when I could not eat and I threw up every single time I did eat. Yea that would make you sad and depressed too but that does not mean I am "clinically" depressed no it means I was malnourished and had no one believe me that something was seriously wrong with me. I could go on and on about this (and have) but it won't make a difference b/c until doctors realize how bad of an epidemic this food sensitivity/allergy is, nothing will change. They will do anything other than look at something as simple as a food allergy. They will do every test and every procedure before just testing for an allergy. NO it can't be that simple can it? Well it is... I don't need all these "tests" to tell me what is wrong with me. I figured it out all on my own. Anyway, back to consuming gluten and what it does to me...
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
My Yia-Yia (Grandmother)
My Yia-yia was an amazing woman. I don't know much about her background except that she is from a small village in Northern Greece and that she is Spartan. I never knew she was of Spartan descent because in my family we always talked about my Papou's (Grandfather) side which is Pondi. It wasn't until about 5 years ago that I found out my Yia-yia wasn't Pondi but Spartan. I won't lie I was so excited to find out that I had Spartan in me especially after watching "300".
I remember watching that movie and thinking man how cool would it be to be a Spartan and then I find out I am. SPARTA!!!! LOL. Yes that movie is exaggerated for the big screen but the Spartan did hold off the Persian army with only...
Anyway, my Yia-yia and I had a special bond that I didn't realize until I was older. I always knew she was an incredible woman; if only she had been given a chance she so could have been anything she wanted.
Unlike my Papou my Yia-yia was so intelligent (not to say my Papou was dumb he was just not educated & was a bit ignorant); she never spoke much and always let her husband shine because that is the Greek thing to do (especially for her generation). I also found out that my grandparents marriage was arranged. I cannot imagine being told you have to marry this person. I also found out that my grandfather had a major crush on her sister Sophia first. Talk about AWKWARD LOL, but they were married for a long time and when my Yia-yia got sick my Papou took care of her like I had never seen before. That is true love and it killed me to watch her get sick and not able to do anything as I was still recovering from my own fight with cancer.
I remember watching that movie and thinking man how cool would it be to be a Spartan and then I find out I am. SPARTA!!!! LOL. Yes that movie is exaggerated for the big screen but the Spartan did hold off the Persian army with only...
300 Spartans, 700 Thespians, 400 Thebans and perhaps a few hundred others, most of whom were killed...
Anyway, my Yia-yia and I had a special bond that I didn't realize until I was older. I always knew she was an incredible woman; if only she had been given a chance she so could have been anything she wanted.
Unlike my Papou my Yia-yia was so intelligent (not to say my Papou was dumb he was just not educated & was a bit ignorant); she never spoke much and always let her husband shine because that is the Greek thing to do (especially for her generation). I also found out that my grandparents marriage was arranged. I cannot imagine being told you have to marry this person. I also found out that my grandfather had a major crush on her sister Sophia first. Talk about AWKWARD LOL, but they were married for a long time and when my Yia-yia got sick my Papou took care of her like I had never seen before. That is true love and it killed me to watch her get sick and not able to do anything as I was still recovering from my own fight with cancer.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Allowing & Rewarding Bad Behavior
I have always
loved celebrity gossip. It's a guilty pleasure and it's fun. Anyway,
I've been watching a lot of trials lately and I'm not
talking about the BIG ones like Jody Arias & Whitey Bulger (though
I've followed both). I'm talking about the Lindsay Lohan's, the Chris
Brown's, & other big/small named celebs. I hate to say it but WHAT
THE FUCK HAPPENED to CONSEQUENCES for your actions. The old saying, "You
do the crime you pay the time" that doesn't seem to be the case
anymore.
When did it become okay for people to start behaving badly and then for that behavior to be allowed or worse rewarded? I am so sick of hearing about another person usually a celebrity (i.e. Actor, Sports Star, Reality TV Star, A-List, RICH) doing something horrendous (usually a criminal act) and they then get off or are rewarded for it--by the press, by getting a reality TV show or just the fact that they are in no serious trouble.
It's become all about who you are, who you know and what lawyer you hire. I don't understand why, when or how this became the "norm". When did it become acceptable to allow someone to commit heinous crimes over and over and over again and say "Oh but that's okay, she had a hard childhood" or "He comes from a rough background" BLAH BLAH BLAH it's all a bunch of BULLSHIT. Then they are let off AGAIN with a warning or some pitiful sentence like probation and/or community service when they should be thrown in jail.
I believe once you hit a certain age; you need to stop blaming everyone & everything for your BAD behavior and start taking some responsibility and accountability for your actions. This goes for EVERYONE not just the well known. I've seen this bad behavior in all parts of life. I've worked with doctors who think they are above their support staff b/c we are not physicians or we don't have letters behind our names. (I have a great story about a doctor I worked with who flat out LIED on legal documents and he tried to blame ME) but I digress.
When did it become okay for people to start behaving badly and then for that behavior to be allowed or worse rewarded? I am so sick of hearing about another person usually a celebrity (i.e. Actor, Sports Star, Reality TV Star, A-List, RICH) doing something horrendous (usually a criminal act) and they then get off or are rewarded for it--by the press, by getting a reality TV show or just the fact that they are in no serious trouble.
It's become all about who you are, who you know and what lawyer you hire. I don't understand why, when or how this became the "norm". When did it become acceptable to allow someone to commit heinous crimes over and over and over again and say "Oh but that's okay, she had a hard childhood" or "He comes from a rough background" BLAH BLAH BLAH it's all a bunch of BULLSHIT. Then they are let off AGAIN with a warning or some pitiful sentence like probation and/or community service when they should be thrown in jail.
I believe once you hit a certain age; you need to stop blaming everyone & everything for your BAD behavior and start taking some responsibility and accountability for your actions. This goes for EVERYONE not just the well known. I've seen this bad behavior in all parts of life. I've worked with doctors who think they are above their support staff b/c we are not physicians or we don't have letters behind our names. (I have a great story about a doctor I worked with who flat out LIED on legal documents and he tried to blame ME) but I digress.
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